This moment...

25 ramadhan... at this moment of time (4pm), while all muslims is preparing for Asar's prayer, while those muslims is doing the sunnah prayer, she is battling her life... at this moment, she had open her eyes after been sleeping for the past 3 days... no one knows, that moment, she is watching her soul as it flew away and saying goodbye to all people around her, to me... but no one see her... this moment, her last grip is slowing fading from my hold... i cant describe how this moment had fade away, but i am glad to be there, i am glad to remind her of the mighty Allah all the time, never stop, until her last breath... i have promised her,, which i dont have to tell the whole world now.. lets this promise only between me, you and Allah... i trust you have listen to me mom, bcoz i have seen u such a release but in another way which ur last exhale ever... ya Allah, please remind me when ever i have forgotten the path on holding the promise... because i am afraid to be seen as the bad shadow of myself...  alhamdulillah... i have tried my best... lets nobody see it... bcoz mom, u always said, the good things is not to be seen and not to be told... i pray i will be strong as you mom! after that moment, i knew, u will be in a better place, u have left the good things behind, u have the good things to taking care of everything u left... but what is it? no one knows, only u and Allah knew... i dont know either, i can only describe that, why? bcoz u have left the last smile for us to see.. its the sweetest goodbye ever... i have no questions, i have no wonders.. i smile back to you, even u dont see it.. its a mutual understanding appear between us during that moment...... remembering the suffering i have seen everyday is a heart slashed.. i have learned mom, now i am glad.. Allah is the greatest, He have arrange the best thing for us and everything that happen, everything that we have face, will be paid as a token... to be strong, to be thankful, always redha (pleased) are always the hardest thing to do... why? bcoz we tend to forgot Allah... i have found the answer in u... u are the strongest women ever, u stand strong for ur family, u always thanked Allah for every test given bcoz u always patient, redha (pleased) and Allah gave u a token, u have family to lean on, u have children that makes u proud and we stand to protect you...just let people see that i have gave nothing.. i have nothing to prove, you are no longer with me to tell everybody ....but Allah knows... this token is now will continue even u r no longer with us.. and this token will always be with you until at padang mashar, insyallah.... my pray is always with u mom... remember i have told u, "mak, jangan risau ye.. just hold my hand" i really meant it for the rest of my life....  "ya Allah, istiqamah kan aku dalam ibadah ku, terutama dalam doa ku dan semoga aku sentiasa redha akan ujian mu" Al-Fatihah...

i am happy for u, SweetyHoneyzz

Ramadhan Hits Again....

Salam ramadhan to all muslims! every year i will feel the tears of ramadhan when ever i open this blog. something call me up to open it.. i not really used to blog every single day.. when i open it up, yeahhh i know, that voice is calling me to recall the ramadhan moment :') never the less, is all about u mom... *cry* the last thing ever i can recall that makes me feel better, when the doc said, "she had a lot of faith in you"

i must never make her disappointing now.. even its impossible to say that she always eyeing me.. i trust this as her believe towards me.. thats why, i decided to make a move ahead in my career its all about my family...
mom, i know you already know by now.. i know u r so proud of me since i was in boarding school.. i study hard, i give you best result just to make you proud.. because in ur life, u have gone through the difficulties, with people surround that always jealous on u.  they dont envy you.. and now, even you r not here with us, i know those people will still rename you as part of my victory.. yes mom, this is the precious gift ever for you... 

  

Pre-ramadhan Gathering....

since i overnite here at ppum, i manage to reach office early b4 9am.. drop by at nearby bakery to get some sandwiches... my day start as usual at office till i felt the time pasted to fast.. yesterday matt had already planed for khairul bday lunh treat.. but somthing goes wrong sumwhere between him and putri and the lunch is on without 3 gorgeous ladies from river team.. ahahhaa.. nway, HAPPY BDAY KHAIRUL...

time fly n reach to 6pm.. as planned in huru hara team today we gonna had our pre-ramadhan gathering.. @ the chillis, Empire Subang... we r just like family!

and thanks for visiting my mum b4 the dinner.. ouww yahhh.. special appearance, nana aoki , a long lost of gud buddy.. im so glad that she's here with us. *hugs n kisses*

7th of Ramadhan...

today i went back early n as usual for this ramadhan, im going to cook for break-fast... its unlike usual, the weather is really make u feel 'sick' huhu...

on my way back home, i was thinking about the menu for today's break-fast? my mum is going to break her fast at the near by mosque.. so, i was thinking to just have a simple menu for today..urmmm..sardin mayb? only both of us, me n my lil bro... ok jugak bah! ;)

reached home almost 6, then i asked mom, "are u going to the mosque today?" mom reply, "yes but i was thinking to just break my fast at home" owhhh.. i see then.. after change, have a look at the kitchen, naaa, my mom already get ready the terobok fish.. urmmmm.. nk msk per?? grill?ok juge~ :D thats all?hmmm..lets see..........







... preparation for the grill fish ...


... its done!! ...


next menu.... sambal kering kentang...






... the preparation ...


... sambal kering kentang ...

everyday different menu :) rather then u bought it from outside! (byk minyak, byk ajinamoto <<--- for="" good="" health="" not="" span="" ur="">further more, u dun even know how does it taste, sometimes, it will turn up, u just throw it away at the bin <<---- span="" style="color: #66ffff; font-weight: bold;"> bazir....
therefore......

elakkan pembaziran,gayakann hidup sihat
-sweetyhoneyzz-

2nd Ramadhan.....

its been long2 time didnt update this blog..due to the traffic jam on the road :p naaa! kidding (xde kaitan kot..huhu) today is the 2nd of the fasting month... and also my 2nd day using the public transportation..hehe.. not as yesterday, im totally lost! but today, much2 better.. improved alot huh! ;) reached office at 7.35 and now continuing my work...

urmmm apsal ngantuk nih! semlm xngantuk..hrnie ngantuk plak..ishk3!! rasa mcm xsabar nk blk nie..huhu.. coz today tgh smgt! mcm nk msk! pg2, hmmm..actually dr mlm td lg dh terpikir nk msk hrnie..sumthing special for sumone special laa konon ;) unfortunately he cant make it :( huhu.. terkilan plak.. he's not feeling well.. so i was thinking nk msk daging black pepper and udang masak halia.. <--- bg="" dier="" its="" laa..jgn="" laa="" msk="" next="" ok="" plak..heheh..nway="" pose="" rasa..semlm="" strong="" tbayang2="" then..mayb="" time="">kepala ikan 3 rasa.. alaaaa, lupa plak nk amik pic..huhu..

mlm nie bleh ke g tarawih?wanted to go..if posible, dun want to missed any.. like yesterday, me, my sis and her husband together we went to the mosque for tarawih.. kan best!! but then, if my mum want to go then shudnt be any problem..i can just stay at home then.. hmmmm..mayb i shud upload sum photos and update my lonely fb! huhuu..siannn.. no time for myself, nie kn plak nk update semua2 nie? all the time work! work! work!
ok then..till we meet again..almost to break time..rest ur mind n speed ur move! ;)



mixed up,
-sweetyhoneyzz-