This moment...

25 ramadhan... at this moment of time (4pm), while all muslims is preparing for Asar's prayer, while those muslims is doing the sunnah prayer, she is battling her life... at this moment, she had open her eyes after been sleeping for the past 3 days... no one knows, that moment, she is watching her soul as it flew away and saying goodbye to all people around her, to me... but no one see her... this moment, her last grip is slowing fading from my hold... i cant describe how this moment had fade away, but i am glad to be there, i am glad to remind her of the mighty Allah all the time, never stop, until her last breath... i have promised her,, which i dont have to tell the whole world now.. lets this promise only between me, you and Allah... i trust you have listen to me mom, bcoz i have seen u such a release but in another way which ur last exhale ever... ya Allah, please remind me when ever i have forgotten the path on holding the promise... because i am afraid to be seen as the bad shadow of myself...  alhamdulillah... i have tried my best... lets nobody see it... bcoz mom, u always said, the good things is not to be seen and not to be told... i pray i will be strong as you mom! after that moment, i knew, u will be in a better place, u have left the good things behind, u have the good things to taking care of everything u left... but what is it? no one knows, only u and Allah knew... i dont know either, i can only describe that, why? bcoz u have left the last smile for us to see.. its the sweetest goodbye ever... i have no questions, i have no wonders.. i smile back to you, even u dont see it.. its a mutual understanding appear between us during that moment...... remembering the suffering i have seen everyday is a heart slashed.. i have learned mom, now i am glad.. Allah is the greatest, He have arrange the best thing for us and everything that happen, everything that we have face, will be paid as a token... to be strong, to be thankful, always redha (pleased) are always the hardest thing to do... why? bcoz we tend to forgot Allah... i have found the answer in u... u are the strongest women ever, u stand strong for ur family, u always thanked Allah for every test given bcoz u always patient, redha (pleased) and Allah gave u a token, u have family to lean on, u have children that makes u proud and we stand to protect you...just let people see that i have gave nothing.. i have nothing to prove, you are no longer with me to tell everybody ....but Allah knows... this token is now will continue even u r no longer with us.. and this token will always be with you until at padang mashar, insyallah.... my pray is always with u mom... remember i have told u, "mak, jangan risau ye.. just hold my hand" i really meant it for the rest of my life....  "ya Allah, istiqamah kan aku dalam ibadah ku, terutama dalam doa ku dan semoga aku sentiasa redha akan ujian mu" Al-Fatihah...

i am happy for u, SweetyHoneyzz